depress this
Today, in an attempt to find out whether I was happy or not, I took this questionnaire. Because, you know, it's not enough to just feel happy or unhappy - you need an objective third party to tell you whether you're happy or not.
Anyway it turns out I am "moderately depressed", which is just one step down from "severely depressed", at which point they recommend that you put everything down (including that knife) and seek treatment immediately. Apparently if you're only "moderately depressed", you should retake the test in two weeks and see if you're any happier. If not, you should seek treatment too. It makes me suspect these people run a mental health clinic.
I was a bit depressed about being depressed, but then it turns out that other people around me (whom I then forced to take the test) were also "moderately depressed"! That made me less depressed. Perhaps if I retake the test now I will only be "mildly depressed". But I don't dare to, in case I discover that I am still "moderately depressed". That might be enough to push me over the edge to "severely depressed".
I think part of the reason I'm depressed is because Burning Crusade comes out in only eight days and I'm still far far away from my Grand Marshal gear. :( Today I went to Sim Lim to put our downpayments on the preorders and then, empowered by my ability to locate Tec-Drome, endeavoured to explore the other shops. At this point I must reveal that I am somewhat intimidated by Sim Lim. It didn't help that when I walked into Fuwell, I was the only girl in the shop (some more today wearing pink and balancing precariously on my pastel-coloured heels) and everyone turned to stare at me in shock like I was some kind of tottering pink alien.
But determined to battle my Sim Lim demons (armed only with my shoes and, as described above, the element of surprise), I boldly ventured forth to do what I do best - shop. Braving the unmistakable smell of unwashed geeks sourcing for geeky bargains, I tried to select a gaming mouse, flash drive, and headphones. But then I got confused by big words like "optical" and "wireless" and put everything back. Methinks these purchase decisions are best left to my brother.
The whole experience reminded me of last night, when I was trying to buy CDs at Borders. (Thank you to everyone, for all the recommendations, by the way - I have written everything down in my nice pink shopping list pad.) CD-shopping at Borders is not for dummies. Everything is prohibitively expensive, to begin with, and it's all arranged in alphabetical order so you have to know what you want going in. Which, obviously, I didn't.
I gave up and went to That CD Shop instead, which is kind and patient and tells you exactly what you should be listening to in the form of generous discounts and entire walls of recommendations. So I ended up getting Scissor Sisters (cos c7676 listens to them, so must be good), Akon (cos I like Smack That, heehee), and some High Society Shanghai Divas thing (just to pamper myself). I have also decided that I want some unpretentious jazz stuff, some French rap, and Daft Punk's Discovery album. Any more suggestions?
Actually what I need recommendations for is books. (My blog has turned out to be an amazing source of recommendations so let's try this.) I am in a very-short-attention-span phase these days so I need something that reads easily but isn't trashy, is snappy but doesn't try too hard, and is plot-driven rather than philosophical and metaphorical. Something like - wait for it - Agatha Christie! I looked over my existing collection the other day and discovered to my horror that I'm actually short of eight books (probably lent out and will never be recovered) so I bought two yesterday. Or Neil Gaiman, but I have everything he's ever written already, I think. Even Marvel 1602, which I only discovered last week and which is awesome. Maybe I'm in a comic book mode. Or fantasy? Perhaps crime.
I'm restless. (And, apparently, depressed.) Is that obvious?
posted by zyn ::
10:35 PM ::
8 Comments ::
permalink
--------------------------------------------------------::--------------------------------------------------------
